| okay so it has been a LONG LONG time since I've last been here...i told my self that I was done with xanga for a while but sometimes you just feel the mood to write. tonight is one of those times and it seems rather sad that i have to be in a downer mood to get back on this thing but oh wells you can't always help that. Don't get me wrong...I'm happy where I'm at in my life, things this semester have been really great, awesome in fact but i guess life just throws you little bumps every now & then. tonight is one of them...my frustration level is high so i'm trying to escape and sit here in this computer lab pretending that i'll do homework when in the end i'll just spend hours aimlessly surfing the web. see so i at least can admit to myself what i'm doing here. luckily it's pretty empty tonight so i don't have to worry about bumping into those who would like to "socialize."
on a positive note: the weather has been gorgeous lately and it does make me a little homesick. it's funny how much you can miss a place and all that surrounds it...what i wouldn't give to lie on the beach for just 5 minutes and see that beautiful ocean spread out before me. growing up truly is a wonder...okay i can see that i'm starting to get philosophical so i'm going to be smart & stop while i'm ahead...off to do some real philosophy work. |
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| Sigh...I'm
sick. And unfortunately it's not your common, everyday cold. I am
another lucky person who has caught the stomach flu that is apparantly
going around. I must say that this has been one eventful week. Not
really the last week at home I had envisioned but I guess I just have
to take things in stride. On the bright side...I get to rest a lot and
sleep as much as I want. Sleep is all i've done within the last 48
hours. I slept for 12 hours last night!!! Codine in cough syrup really
does knock you out. However, I am feeling much better today than
yesterday. My fever of 100.2 has gone down, no vomiting, and my body
doesn't ache as much. The weather is a lot nicer today too. I'm
amazingly staying on the positive side seeing as how this week should
actually be a major downer.
Why should this week be a major downer? Well besides
catching the flu I am now SINGLE. Yup I'm sure many jaws drop at the
reading of that word but it's true. But you know what? I'm doing really
good and I'm okay. I mean it's still tough at times but it's not the
end of the world. What we had was wonderful & I wouldn't change it
for the world. But for now we both need to have or own space & live
our own lives. We still love one another and are determined to remain
friends. Life's unpredictable and I figure it's about time I start
being positive about it. And hey, if we're meant to be then it'll
happen...things are in God's hands now & i have to trust that it
will all workout for the best.
I'm really excited for this semester! In less than a
week I will be living in Pi Beta Phi & beginning my journey as a
pledge. Haha sometimes it still seems a little crazy but it'll be fun.
I need some fun in my life & it's about time I rediscovered myself.
The semester will be super busy between sorority life, school, and work
but I'm up to the challenge. I think the hardest part about going back
to Willamette is knowing that I won't be home for another year. It's
crazy to think I'll be gone for that long but I'm growing up & the
opportunities aren't here for me. It's sad because I'll miss my family
& friends but I think this is a learning experience I need to do.
Anyway I'm gonna get back to resting. I hope everyone had an awesome
break and I'll see some of you soon back at school! take care all!
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| i JuSt GoT sOmE gReAt NeWs! A cOuPle Of mY fRiEnDs ArE gEtTiNg AlOnG aGaIn & It Is AbSoLuTeLy AwEsOmE  . i MiSs YoU bOtH vErY mUcH & i HoPe ThAt oNe DaY wE cAn AlL hAnGoUt LiKe OlD tImEs...LoVe YoU gIrLiEs.
on another note I've been home now for a week and I admit it seems a
lot longer but I'm not complaining. it's nice to be home and be able to
relax. christmas was pretty chill for me & i really haven't done
much since being home but oh wells. I still haven't gone to the beach
which sucks ass seeing as how I need to get some color and fast...lol.
but it's been nice running into most peeps and catching up with old
friends. i have been eating a lot tho...hehe and i really should hit
the gym soon. it's just been nice not having to worry about school or
work or anything else for that matter. the next few days should be fun
though since our friend drew is visiting. so kev & i will get to
show him some of our lil life in lovely hilo...lol. hope it doesn't
rain too much  . anyway i'm going to go do
something i haven't done in a long time...and that is take a lon, hot,
& relaxing bubble bath...god i love being home! i hope everyone is
enjoying their breaks...happy holidays and have a great new years!
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| YES I am DONE!!! and I'm going home on monday! sunny hawaii here I come! Have a great holiday break everyone.
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| Okay so it's finals week and i really don't have much to do. Last week was my hectic week and now i'm left with nothing to do until saturday. i had my nihongono final today which was really easy and i now realize that i truly should have taken 2nd year instead of being lazy...bleh oh wells. i don't have another final until saturday and have nothing to do except move into Pi Phi but i don't even know when i can do that. bummers...there's not much to do either since most peeps are leaving or too busy studying for their finals. hmm by now you should have realized that this is a pointless entry and i just need something to do. okiedokie i'm off to do the laundry...gluck to everyone with finals! |
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